Last day

I can't believe how fast the summer has gone. As of Monday it is all over for me I go back to work. It will probably be one the hardest days. I have only left Maddie for more then 3 hours once and that was at night time when I went out for my first adult night. She has been doing good all week going down at 9am and sleeping until noon until today she was a fuss bucket all day. The only way she would go down was by me holding or rocking her. (yeah she might be a little spoiled but I can do that :) ) I never put my birth story so this is what happen almost 3 months ago:

Maddie's Birth Story

Madeline was due on June 30th and I had no idea what to expect with the birth. Actually labor and delivery scared the heck out of me. I wasn't sure what was going to happen when I went into labor or if it was really going to hurt. So when June got here I started progressing at my 32 week apt I was dilated 1-2 cm. She was weighing in at 5lbs and they said she was going to be a huge baby. I was trying to wrap things at work in the beginning of June. With that said I had made arragments for a vendor to come on site to help with a project I kept telling Maddie she could come anytime after the 13th just please let me get through this last project. Well around June 9th I started losing my mucus plug and was thinking no no please just wait one more week. But I think I knew something was going to happen soon I packed my hospital bag and bought last min items. On June 1oth I came home from work and layed low packed some clothes in the suit case and went to bed. Around 11 or midnight I started having some pains so I tried sleeping on the couch. The pains happened every hour on the hour but I really didn't think much about it as they always say your first could take forever to be born. So with no sleep I got up early and went to work. I didn't feel awesome at work and was passing more of the mucus plug. I had a dr. Apt that morning at 9 I was hoping and praying he would not admit me because I had work to do. Josh was also suppose to leave for New Hampshire but was waiting on my apt. At the doctors apt I was told I was at 3cm dialted and probably won't be pregnant this time next week but I was good to go. If she was here by next we would do another sonogram to see how big she was getting to see if I would need a c-section because he wouldn't induce. So I left the doctors office and called Josh to send him to New Hampshire. I was going to have mom come spend the night with me incase anything happened. I went back to work and got to a point where we took a break for lunch. I thought I would go home and lay down to sneak a nap before going back in. As I was laying there my contractions got worse. I got up to tell Josh I was going back to work. He ended up staying home just incase. He wanted to know how far apart my contractions were and I said I don't know I have time because it is my first child and I have to get back to work. He drove to work as he wouldn't let me drive myself. As we were driving he started timing my contractions they were 4 mins apart. So he told me I was done working and we were going to the hospital. I got to work said good bye to everyone did one finally thing with the vendor and said goodbye and thanks to him. I then went back home to change and pack a bag for Maddie. I then called the doctors office to tell them my contactions were 4mins apart. They had me come right in and for the first time I didn't have to wait in the waiting room I got right into a room. I also didn't have to wait for the dr either he came in right behind me. He checked me and I was at 6cm. I had gone from 3cm to 6cm in 5 hours. He strectched me to 7 cm and sent me to the hospital and said we were going to have a baby tonight. As he wrote my orders I told him to have the epi waiting for me when I got to the room. I called mom and told her to get to the hospital and as we were heading there ourseleves. When we got to registration I had to wait a few moments so they could get my paperwork and barclet made. Josh got a little anxious he was like she is going to have a baby her contractions are 4mins apart. (Like they couldn't tell I was pregnat) I got an escort up to the 7th floor and into a labor room. I got nurse Jeri who was the best nurse! She set me all up and the contractions got worse. I begged for drugs but we couldn't do anything until dr.aloupis got there. He came to break my water at 4 or 4:30 and I begged for drugs after and he said I was to late for drugs she was coming to quickly and that if I did take them it would slow things down. So they gave me some stadiol to help ease some of the pain. I felt like I was drunk. My mom and Josh were really good. My mom kept a wash cloth on forehead and Josh had a leg as I wanted to push. I started pushing at 5 and by 6:12 she was born. Labor wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. She got stuck and he was going to use the vaccuum until I said give me 5 more mins and I will push her out myself. She get tired with all that pushing. Some times they would say push hard and would fake push. He had to perform an episodimy as she was coming so quick and I felt every bit of it. If I could have gotten my foot away from Josh I would have kicked him. He apologized and said he gave me a numbing shot but it didn't take in time. At 6:12 pm Maddie was took her first breath and she came out screaming. I got to hold her right after she came and it was one of the best feelings in the world. There are no words to describe the feeling of holding your baby for the first time. After they cleaned her up I got to hold her again. Then I let Josh and my mom hold her. She weighed 7lbs 5oz and was 19.45 inches long. In the nursery she was the loudest baby.